Change

Hope everyone is doing great! We are good, had a busy few months but starting to slow down (kind of). We went to Vegas for the National Finals Rodeo at the beginning of December and had a lot of fun. This was our second year in a row to go, we have amazing grandparents who were willing to watch Andi for us both times! Once we got home from Vegas it seemed like we still haven't unpacked our bags, I truly can't remember what all we've done since then seems like we've been everywhere. However, the last two days I haven't had much to do and I find myself about to crawl out of my skin. I LOVE being on the fly all the time, seems to be when I function the best, I think it's my gypsy soul (or Houtwed soul) lol.

Andi is doing awesome, she is growing up so much. I love it, I truly love the stage she is in. Anything we do she copies, anything. I put a wafer in my mouth and hold it there so I can grab her one. She walks around for an hour holding her wafer in her mouth. Todd and I were sitting and watching TV last night and were really into the show (Todd was on it, he was standing in line at Sturgis) so she came and sat beside us on the couch and watched the show so intently. It was hilarious. If I sneeze she'll walk around for 5 minutes going choo, choo, choo. I love it! I've never really been around little kids other than her, so it's fun to learn everything they do.

It seems as though times are changing for us tho. Exciting and scary at the same time. As most everyone knows I have been trying to get out of Manhattan and live somewhere smaller. And even though I have been waiting for it for a long time, it is still scary. I like change, but only change that I control. Anything beyond my control is not fun. Todd doesn't like change at all, like seriously not at all. Love you :D But sometimes the beginning of something is the scariest part. You can't live your life a certain way just because you are afraid to do something different. Mr Goetz said, "A ship in a harbor is safe, but that's not what ships were made for." And he's right, were not made to sit around where everythings comfortable, we're made to go out and do more. Something so much greater could be out there, just have to get over the hump. And we're starting our climp up the hump. We're still not sure how everything is going to work out, or where everything will fall into place but we have God guiding us and that's all we need. It's amazing how he all of a sudden puts things into place, waiting for that to happen seriously sucks though :)!

I know a lot of people think I've lost my mind for not wanting to live in Manhattan, but I've come to terms with that. I'm ok with being that crazy girl, someday I'm sure I'll be the crazy dog/horse lady. I'm more concerned with how the barn will be organized than what the house we build will look like, that's Todds cup of tea. I told him I'll take formica over granite anyday if I can have a nicer barn lol. I understand the possibilities here, I know that Todd could be very successful, I know I have the ability to accomplish anything here, I know the resources, I know it all and I see it all. I see why people love it, its a beautiful town with great people in it. But it's just not going to happen for this girl. I've been trying to since I first arrived here and it's just never been there, I can't seem to make this home. I can't seem to fit in here. My heart says no. I understand that people live in places they don't really like everyday, and that they make the best of it. I've been doing that for 7 years and I'm done doing that and thank God I have the love and support of Todd. He is truly, without a doubt, the best. He's accepted that I'm the world's most impossible person to deal with and has opened his heart to change, kind of. Lets not get to excited lol. But God gave me him for a reason. You're the best Hot Toddy.

If you'll pray for us over our journey we'd love the support, and I'll keep everyone posted! And if you're needing a house or needing to sell your house in the Pratt area give me a call!!!